Compromise…

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The other day my Husband and I got to go out on a date day. It was the first time that we had been child free for more than a couple hours since we had our Son 4 1/2 years ago. We were able to know that our kids were in great hands and we actually finished whole sentences.

We went out to eat and I got a gluten free waffle, but they were not vegan and loaded on what I though was pure maple syrup, turns out it was maple flavored high fructose corn syrup (HFCS) and I got to pay the piper, the entire next day. My body can not handle HFCS and neither can my son. After his renal biopsy, that we are still waiting to hear the results back from, the nurses gave him a popsicle. For the whole next day not only was he in pain, but he had those disgusting sulfer burps and a stomach ache. Poor thing, I know not to allow them to feed my son again. They said I couldn’t give him the green juice I brought but advised to a HFCS popsicle being an ok alternative.

I could get into an entire rant on the medical system keeping people sick, but I will leave it at that.

Anyway, it made me realize something about compromise. This word has been popping into my head a lot lately when I get asked to do something. I think, “Oh, we could use the money” or “it is just this once,” so I say yes and end up knowing that is not what I am being called to put energy into.

I am getting more and more clear on what I auto be putting energy into.

A list as of now of what I will not compromise on any longer:
Anything that contains high fructose corn syrup, it is poison to my body and my son’s.
doing work that I feel I have to do just to get money
doing activities or going to gatherings that do not completely resonate with my understandings of a now (for us it would be going to indoor playdates)
Fear will no longer stand in the way of giving my gifts and talents to the world any longer
I am playing a bigger game, in all aspects of my life
I will spend money on things that will grow, transform and get me out of any small box thinking
I will invest in food that is from the earth and is in the form that it came from the earth in
this will be another gentle step away from tortilla chips!!!

I also know what my soul’s calling is, as in what I am here to serve to humanity.
I am no longer going to compromise my time and energy into “working” on things that no longer serve my soul.
I am here to give other moms my knowledge that I have received through my own struggles, overwhelm and through the ways that I have compromised. This I now know for sure. I am eager to get the word out but I also know that I have the next month or so to get all of my ducks in a row.
This is a process that will grow with me. As I learn and experience more the more I will share and grow with other moms. I also feel a huge calling to create a tribe that represents the individuals within it. This is not a tribe where I am the leader and people follow. This is more of a sacred circle filled with leaders of women, being empowered to step into their space. Knowing that they are needed to step up to be the leaders they are being called to be! Each of us is a leader, each of us is essential. If we are only following we will lose sight of who and what we are here to give and serve to the world.
Feel within you what and where compromise is stored in your body. Begin to notice those feelings throughout the day.
What can you do today to stop compromising?

Make a list of things you will not compromise any longer.

I love you and am so grateful for you!

Stephanie

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