June 6, 2017 by magicalmothering
You are not Alone
4 years ago I remember feeling so alone in my journey. I felt like an alien. We had just moved back into a house after living off grid in a trailer and then a shed for the 5 months. My youngest was 5 months old at the time and we practiced elimination communication with both of the kids, which meant they were diaper free most of the time. My son was extremely sensitive to going indoors which was the only place that offered gatherings for children, so I found it very difficult to connect with other mothers, and almost impossible to connect with like minded mothers.
I felt deeply lost and more than that I felt a deep void in my heart where my inspiration and passion had once been. I couldn’t vision, I couldn’t dream and I was drained…constantly. Since I didn’t have a car at the time my only source of refuge was that I lived within walking distance from the lake. I was able to wear one baby and push the other in a stroller, which I did every day up and down the hills in my little mountain community.
I wandered for over a year, trying to figure out where I fit in. I wished, hoped and begged that somebody would just create a community for me. I just wanted an easy way out.
Then I got a spark of hope.
Could I possibly be the person to start a community?
I really couldn’t even imagine being a leader. And of what??
I am sharing this story because I know some of you are in that dark space that I was 4 years ago. I had a baby, a toddler and was living out an alternative way of mothering.
I didn’t even know that their was women that could help me. So I continued to struggle, to create and to dream.
I found some help along the way. I found groups that made me not feel so alone. I created a physical community of women who I could celebrate, create and share with.
Then I started dreaming bigger than I ever thought possible!!
I created a Facebook group, I started mentoring women, I created a deck of cards to help me create more shifts in my life and continue my momentum.
I grew even more.
Yet, I have still had to forge ahead on a path that at times I have no idea where it is leading me. I have more faith and trust than I ever thought possible in this journey now.
Yet, at times I wish I would have someone who could have held my hand way back years ago so I didn’t have to do it all alone.
I don’t want you to have to go through your journey alone. I want you to go through your journey with support, with confidence and with encouragement from other women who “get” your vision!
This is what I have realized my journey has been about. I got to walk the path alone, finding spirit along the way, but I would love to hold you hand and walk with you on part of your path.
If you are looking for someone but don’t feel like their is anyone that could help pull you out of the depths you feel you are in, I would love to chat with you. I want to connect with you personally to see what truly is possible. I had no idea that my life could ever be what it is, but I want to show you a vision of what yours could be!
I have a few openings in my calendar and I would love to chat with you. Let’s see what is possible. Leave a comment below or email me magicalmothering4me@gmail to set up a time to chat.
With love and gratitude,