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With this weeks healing session helped me deeply it helped me separate the hurt from the healing process I much needed to complete and move forward
To be able to separate the protection wall I have built for myself.
I may need to do this a few more times to fully completely heal and move forward.
I have been so independent and would only cry in the shower where my children could not hear or see me
I had to be strong for them to show them I could fix or accomplish all that needed to be taken care of for them and myself.
So to be able to cry now in front of anyone isnt allowed.
If I cry in front of anyone it is due to me being so upset it is taking all I have to not reach over and hit the person that made me that upset.
This step/ healing session has helped so muchWith this weeks healing video session was amazing, Not only did I see pink I also had waves of green interweaved with the pink my body tingled throughout the only process, I felt like the heaviness was gone and I could breath out guilt or emptiness I felt so peaceful and full of love for myself and for my husband.
With this weeks healing video I was reminded on how to value your time, one tends to forget to value ones time when you get caught up in everyday life. I enjoy making jewelry and other little things that I make, I pray while I put together the pieces I make and when I am complete I price them I price them to where people can purchase them to enjoy them some pieces I will leave a space for the purchaser can add there own medicine(piece) to it to complete it. I do value my time with each piece however I value the look on ones face and can feel the happiness form the person who buys a piece of my art to add to their collection and that ads value to my time and has my heart full.
I do understand that you need money to make ends meet, I believe you also need happiness to feel your own self needs. so my time is valued the price of my time is valued and so is the joy I see in others so I price in the middle to get a feel of both and still able to make ends meet and more.
A blessing to others brings a blessing in return.This healing video raised awareness on so many levels it explained why I do shut down when it came to my emotions, why I shut down when I need to deal with emotional time with my kids(they are adults now)
I use to try and fix all their problems and was always there to help them, when it came time for them to handle an issues they didn’t know how to, they would call me, it took a lot for me to learn to tell them I’m here to listen and give advice but not to fix it. it hurt so much I would cry I felt like a bad mom
now I blocked that feeling and now I feel like I’m not a mom to them cause they learned to stand on their own 2 feet.
I hope all this makes sense, I am going to re-watch this video a couple times I’m sure of it to help me heal these part of me that I need to focus onThis weeks video of healing another fear is faced for me spiders well at least it was just the web that turns anyone in to a ninja when you walk into it. lol
This healing session has helped me with my insecurity I was dealing with the previous videos leading up to this one has helped me get/deal with a lot of things that was off line/offset, to help me reline.
I have learned to be me, to not be someone that others want me to be, to be me and be proud of who I am
to be the honest person I am with the people that don’t get offended by my honesty and non-tactfulness.
I do have to learn to be tactful at the same time I am honest.
now for the last part of this healing session has healed apart of me that I was dealing with and having a very hard time with for the past 3 weeks it has helped me give it back to who it belongs to and gave me insight on how to deal with it on one particular issues that was eating away at me, now that I have did the cord cutting it gave me my power back and how to be tactful when I see them again or speak with them again.
so happy I have these healing videos to look back on and able to re-watch them at anytime I need to refresh my healing.This weeks healing step helped me with letting go of the people that have come into my life from the past and present life, it has helped me release a lot of things that I have hung on to so being able to release all these thoughts and peoples feelings that have attached to me. I am really learning to trust my instinct, in this healing I have faced my fears in so many ways Thanks Stephanie for challenging me with my fears of height’s, claustrophobia in a past healing session. I know have steps to help with that now on how to calm my breathing and panic attacks when I feel like/or in a fear moment.
The message I received from my higher self was to take the time to love myself, to be happy with myself with who I am and how I am, To always be me, to learn how to balance and control my energy.I am learning so much about my self and how to heal and forgive the past to be able to move forward without carrying the wounds/burden of the past with me.
We Travel a lot for our Business Teaspoon Trading, we carry a lot of native American items, I make jewelry and healing baskets{sage, lavender, sweetgrass, Palo Santo and 2 crystals}.
well we are on the road we spend time out in nature I get my nature time 1st thing in the morning by the fire with my tea or coffee which ever I feel like in the morning with my “me time”
we also try to spend some us time together to chat and bond, laugh and learn about each other as we grow.
This healing process is also helping my husband learn about himself and about his past. This has helped us in our marriage, in our communication and how to work together on our travelsThis weeks healing lesson has helped me face more of my fear and to continue on healing my self love to be honest with myself and to be more aware of my habits good or bad.
I am continually learning to trust my intuition, That it is safe to express my emotions safely and tactfully. that it is ok to truly be myself.
I re- watched this healing session a few times as well to release different time frames of my past that I didn’t realize had ahold of me, that I bottled up.
I tend to hold on to my emotions rather then deal with it at the time. Anger is my number 1 that I hold on to till I explode so now I have a safe place to turn to be able to express my feelings in a tactful way.Hello all,
I re-watched this video 3 times to work on 3 different losses I kept bottled up.
I find that I tend to hold my emotions in till I just cant any longer and then I release it I do that with all my emotions ( anger, sadness and occasionally happiness)
going through this healing process is helping/ teaching me how to release my emotions and to face fears..
I am learning to trust myself and my intuitionMountain man rendezvous are reenactments we do and you receive a name when you do something memorable.!
You don’t get to pick your own name..
I received mine on a cold rainy day our fire was just so smokey that I shifted the logs and when I waved my hand back toward me the flames came up and that is how I received my name.I will have to redo this one I don’t feel I got the full experience this go around so much I need to work through and deal with 1st. Once I have cleared up all that was taking over in life I will blog again. I blocked my higher self once again so I need to redo this one.
funny how life just has challenge’s in/on your path (kids who are on own adult paths but still as a mom it changes yours)
thank you will blog again soon.With this video I learned to release all emotions.
Seeing the fire was not difficult for me the colors from a fire is a safe zone for me.( it is also my Rendezvous Name- Goodfire)
seeing the pleasure was awesome, these videos are so helpful and have taught me how to be thankful, grateful for the items, emotions I have coming in- within me.
It has taught me to be thankful and grateful for my relationship with my husband and with my adult children.Learning more about crystals and the natural way of healing some of my issues – anxiety along with vertigo has helped me so much. I find myself turning to mediation more when I am upset feeling a panic attack coming on or feeling a vertigo spell coming on, instead of turning to medication I turn to mediation along with a crystal( which ever one is calling to me at that moment)
I am finding that instead of arguing, screaming or being Irritated with my hubby I find myself closing my eyes and control my breathing to deal with the whatever is going on at the moment.After this weeks mediation helped me with my 3 yr old child self work out the emotional side of why I was stuck and to reach my higher self.
I also learned to find peace from my past, to heal and leave it in the past without question.
the ball of light I built up was so healing and helpful.
I have a habit to block emotions and not feel. with is weeks mediation it helped me to release these and it has helped me to be able to release the hardness I carry within myself. I know it is safe to show sadness, it is safe to cry…
it is ok to heal and love myself.This weeks healing was my biggest task so far.
I had no problem with hearing and seeing the vision I chose my biggest accomplishment was going into the hole under the tree – my heart was racing I began to sweat (I have claustrophobia issues)so for me to stay in the mediation state and control my breathing and not freak out into a panic attack was a huge step and I did it. I did see my 3 year old self, however I could not see my higher self so I spoke with Stephanie and we worked it out to what it was I need to d to accomplish the higher self goal.
I am learning so much and facing the fear of certain issues.
so looking forward to loving myself and those around me as well as the issues/fears I have to be set free of them.
