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Week 11 was very informative for me. It helps me to learn about the scientific functions of the brain to connect with all the other aspects of life. It truly is all connected. From the womb to birth to present. Its all connected. My child hood was chaotic and my mother smoked and drank during pregnancy so I connected on several levels during this video. It also helped me understand my relationship with my son. I had him when I was 17 and at a very dramatic and chaotic time of my life. It helped me understand what he missed out on due to where I was emotionally and mentally.
Another thing in this video that stood out to me was the concept of having different personalities around different people. This is something I did another during my younger years and never really knew why. As I have healed and become more whole I dont find myself doing this like I did before but it makes more sense to me now. I truly feel like things are starting to come together and make more sense through this program and working with Stephanie one on one. I am so grateful.I finally went back and watched week 8! I have been in a bit of a rut lately and have finally come back to myself. This video reminded me that what I do is fulfilling. I farm organic vegetables and hemp with my partner Tyler and I sometimes forget how connected we really are with the earth and its abundance. It really does make a difference to be out in the elements and to feel the dirt in your hands. I am thankful for what I have learned and how the earth has been so giving to us if we just allow it. This video was a good reminder of that for me.
I finally went back and watched week 8! I have been in a bit of a rut lately and have finally come back to myself. This video reminded me that what I do is fulfilling. I farm organic vegetables and hemp with my partner Tyler and I sometimes forget how connected we really are with the earth and its abundance. It really does make a difference to be out in the elements and to feel the dirt in your hands. I am thankful for what I have learned and how nature how the earth has been so giving to me and to us if just allow it. This video was a good reminder of that for me.
This week session was uncomfortable but necessary. I realize now that I have spent most of my life trying to make others comfortable. Trying to make others happy to create my own happiness. Although I do find happiness in making others happy I have done it so long that I dont even know what other things make me happy. I came across several moments in my web of life that caused me to be less confident. Often I was made to feel like I deserved what happened or I was asked what did I do to cause it to happen. I never really had anyone to stand up for me other than my brother when he could. He is my biggest hero from my childhood. It helps me though to visualize these experiences now and to tell my inner child that it wasn’t my fault and did not deserve it. Also the cord cutting helps a lot as well. I tend to hold on to all my connections and the feelings they bring for way too long. So cutting those off was a big release. I am definitely starting to feel more in tune with myself and who I am. Although I am still searching for my purpose or calling. But I know I am getting closer each day.
This one was difficult for me. I have often struggled with listening to my gut instinct. I have felt it many times but chose to ignore it. This has caused many struggles throughout my life. This weeks video really forced me to stop and realize I still have some things I need to let go of and that I need to continue on my current path.
When doing the pillar of light perspective my message from my higher self was to be patient, to continue on this path, to get back into yoga and to let go of the people in the past that are no longer serving me. Then my future will become more clear.
I am learning so much about myself and my past throughout this course. It is uncomfortable at times but it has also made me feel more whole. Like I am finally putting all the pieces together correctly. I am still not sure where exactly this will all lead me or exactly what I want it to lead me to but I know I am on the right track. And that itself is a great feeling.In this week’s video it was difficult for me to think of an exact moment of creativity. However the one memory that came to mind was about an outfit I was super excited about. I believe I was around 10 to 12 years old and I had bought some all white bell bottom jeans with a colorful stitching along the bottom. I remember I loved these pants so much and I couldn’t wait to show them off. The first day I finally got to wear them to school an older boy made fun of me and teased me about the pants. Once he started teasing me then other people did as well. I remember feeling so crushed and embarrassed. I never wore those pants again. It felt good to imagine my higher self encouraging me to wear what I loved and felt good in. Not to conform to what others believe is trendy or looks good. I think after that incident I subconsciously started to only wear things that would help me blend in or not draw too much attention. But I was always drawn to people who dressed “differently”. I really enjoy working on this chakra so far and it has helped me feel a bit more excited and vibrant. I think for my creative project I want to paint something. I havent painted in years and I have a couple visions I’d like to try to bring to life.
That is so awesome!! I would love to be a part of that experience!! Maybe one day… thanks for sharing that with me!
Sandy, I’m interested to know more about what the Rendezvous name is? You mentioned yours is Goodfire. How can learn more about that and what my name would be?
Week 5 is very exciting for me. I believe my sacral chakra has been either fractured or closed. I feel like most of my life I have been told to keep things to myself and not to express the “out of the norm” things I enjoy. It felt good to ignite the fire within and to get excited about something just for me. As a giver I often give so much to everyone else that I don’t leave much time for myself. Doing these videos and the one on one sessions with Stephanie is truly helping me realize how important it is to make time for myself. And to make time to ignite the fire within and to discover what I am passionate about, what I’m good at, and whats important to me. I have already felt a sense of relief and calmness in my life since starting this journey.
I just completed week 4 and I found that using the Emotional Freedom Technique was very beneficial for me. I am a very physical learner. I need to see it and feel it so doing the tapping and actually saying I feel safe out loud integrates better with me. I also enjoy learning more about the stones and how they can help as well. Also I feel more aware of what I am marketing to the world. It helps me to think of my words and actions in that sense.
Hello everyone, so far I completed week 1 and 2 and have had 2 in person sessions with Stephanie. This has already revealed some pretty heavy emotions and forgotten memories for me. I have come to realize that I have been disassociating from my body since I was a baby so it is very difficult for me to picture my own face or myself as a child. Although I cant always see my face clearly I am able to see myself as a small child and my higher self but mostly just my body. However I believe the further into this journey I go things will become clearer and I have actually volunteered to share my healing journey with you all. I am hoping that by doing so I will encourage others to believe that healing is possible and that they are not alone in this. I am looking forward to continuing my path to wholeness and sharing it with you all along the way.
