Full Moon- Releasing expectations, worthlessness and victimhood

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So today is the full moon, yay. So so this video, the full moon and the new moon, I keep these videos up so that for those who are interested can look back through you also get the Pdf and the recording which is available at magical

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So the past 2 weeks during the waning sorry the waxing crescent and the waxing give us during the past 2 weeks, as the moon has been growing, we’ve been talking a lot about worthlessness expectations

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forgiveness. boundaries have come up and so with the full moon.

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It’s such a perfect time to release so think about the full moon.

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I like to think about the full moon as like a pregnant belly, and the baby being born like that is the full moon.

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Energy is that everything’s been growing and growing and growing and today it is burning itself.

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And so while that releasing process or birthing process can be painful, it’s also filled with a lot of excitement and joy and rejuvenation and energy, and things like that so something to take notice of is the full

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moon is the intentions or what you were doing, thinking, putting into your thoughts.

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6 months prior on the new moon. I love looking back at this so that would have been February’s new moon, and I can’t see I have it on the Pdfs.

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But I forgot to look up the exact date so in february. If you can kind of just go back in your physics body, I don’t necessarily want it to be so much of a thought process, but I want you to

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intuitively tap into your heart space and your intuition.

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When you think of February what was going on during that time.

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So i’m really think i’m like feeling february, and there was a lot of snow happening.

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It was the coldest part of the year yet. and there was this aspect of Are we gonna make it through the winter?

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Our bus is not winterized. Hi, good morning, Linda.

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We had not finished the house that we thought we were going to finish.

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It was snowing a lot, and yet I like I made this snow suit for myself last February, and I was just.

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I like lived in it, and I got snow suits for the kids, and we were going out in 17 degree weather, and just having a blast. and so i’m like in my heart space, thinking about how much fun good morning.

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Stacey. I was thinking about how much fun I was having last February, and that intention of just thriving, and not in.

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I wasn’t thinking so much about thriving in a financial, wealthy type of way, because, remember, our thoughts are what create our reality.

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I was really excited about the resources that are on this land, and this abundance that surrounded me, and the snow that was happening in these new experiences, and all that was possible.

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And so now, 6 months later, i’m seeing the abundance of my garden, I’m.

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Seeing that we have chickens and rabbits now i’m seeing these projects getting done, i’m seeing the resources coming in to finish the house with is our goal to finish the house before goddess camp and to have like an

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outhouse and an outdoor shower setup and the house done so we could have some structures.

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So it’s always nice having a timeline to try to finalize some things.

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So I would love to hear from you. If you can think back in your heart space intuitively, what energy were you putting out with thoughts?

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Were you putting out last February? I was also very much in a journey through that winter space.

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So February. The first is candlest, and I remember it was snowing, and my kids and I.

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We were making bees, racks, candles for inbox, or for candlest, and there was just this just pleasure around this space.

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I was also working with the goddess Anna, and Anana has a very interesting story.

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She actually travels down into the underworld, which is why I chose to work with her from winter solstice until in milk.

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Was this aspect of going into the underworld, and dying to everything that you adorn yourself with.

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So she went through 7 dates, and it took off her crown, and it took off her lapis beads, and it took off her belt, and it took off her robe, and she had it into the underworld naked

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just, you know, with no adornment despite the fact that she’s the Queen of Heaven, and it was such a powerful time to really unravel all of these things that I had put on myself thinking that I had to live up

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to these expectations right where we try and try and try and try and try, or at least I do.

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I’ll speak for myself, I try and try and try and try and now I’m, seeing 6 months later, that fully coming into fruition.

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This aspect of really kind, clearly, seeing that I needed to strip away all of the aspects so that I could find this root cause of worthlessness that came up the other day and really unraveling that cycle.

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But I had to first strip myself of all of the things that no longer serve me, and so I would love to extend the invitation to you, and then for you to share in the discord.

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Community, hey? Sunshine? enjoying West Yellowstone.

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So I would love to hear from you what you are releasing expectations, Worthlessness, if forgiveness, aspects, what are you releasing, or what is your intention to release for this full moon?

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A very powerful practice is just to write these things down on a piece of paper and a piece of paper that’s not in a journal for things like that.

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But you write down these aspects, and really feel where they’re located in the body.

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So if you have issues with boundaries, or creating boundaries, or holding boundaries, or making boundaries, if you have good morning, Amber.

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If you have issues with holding space for yourself, with releasing expectations, or judgment, or control, or any of these aspects, write them down.

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If you have issues with forgiveness, being able to truly forgive yourself so that you can really step into what is waiting for.

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You write that down. Good morning, Lisa. and Then as you’re going through this process.

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Good morning, lisa I love that he’s hoping on as you’re going through this process, you can really fully write down the things that are no longer serving you burn them when you’re ready so I have to

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admit i’ve done this a few times and sometimes it’s taken me up to like 8 months to burn something.

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So just because, do you write it down doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re fully ready to release it, and I wanna give you permission to hold on to it for as long as you need or want to until you’re ready to burn

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it just because it’s the former and doesn’t mean that you have to burn it.

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This full moon. you might wait 6 months and burn it at the new moon in 6 months.

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I just. I feel like so often our culture rushes us into like getting things done.

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Oh, well, you you became aware of it, so you need to burn it.

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You need to get that you need to get rid of that.

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You need to get it out of your life haven’t you lived with it long enough for me.

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I realized that it was so. I needed to really integrate what I had written down, especially when we’re working with fears or subconscious apps.

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There’s this aspect of once we write it down it’s now conscious it doesn’t mean that we fully integrated it because a lot of times in we’re subconsciously doing behaviors.

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We’re dissociating from our physical body while we’re doing those subconscious behaviors. so I find it really interesting that when we write something down, it’s now conscious in the forefront of our brain and and for

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me. I really had to see, just like with this worthlessness thing.

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I really have to look at it and see where and how it’s affected every aspect of my life, and in what ways it’s snuck in and in what ways it’s interceded and in what ways it’s played

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in a factor in all of these things. and so I don’t necessarily like to release things right away.

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I really enjoy seeing where they’ve made an impact in my life in my body, in my emotions, in my mental health, in the way that I communicate, and sometimes for me, that can take 6 months 8 months it can take some time to really

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see where all of this is coming from and where it’s stemming from.

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I want to give you that permission to write it down.

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Bring it into the forefront of your mind so you can really see it in front of you.

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But if you’re not ready to release it right away I I wanna just let you know like you don’t have to.

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We’re working with the lunar cycle is such while it’s quick, right it’s so much slower than the solar cycle.

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Every day is a new day in the solar cycle.

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Every day you have morning and night every day you’re expected to do the things that you’re expected to do.

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Look at the lunar cycle pulls us back a little bit.

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There’s a week of action there’s a week of intention setting.

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There’s a week of releasing and then there’s a week of rest.

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So, while that all happens in a 24 h cycle, the aspect of waiting, waking, setting intentions for maybe moments seconds, maybe none at all.

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And then you have the action pre phase and then you’re releasing.

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And then you’re resting again and this happens in a 24 h cycle.

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But I find that the lunar cycle for me is giving me permission to not have to move so quickly, to not rush through the process.

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And I love even more that the full moon shares with me that the intentions and thoughts that I were thinking 6 months ago just came to fruition with this full moon.

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It’s not even in one lunar cycle like the lunar cycle takes its time to bring those things to through question.

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Stacy shares you’re the third person this week to say, write it down.

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I know I have to do this. Yes, yes, yes, and Stacy share.

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This helps and makes perfect sense good good so as we’re going through this process, as we’re allowing for this full moon to illuminate.

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I love to see the full moon as this, like bright flashlight literally lighting up within my shadow self within, like the skeletons in the closet.

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Right. I love having the full moon illuminate the things that I am ready to take care of, and that way for the following new moon.

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That way I can release I can rest on it and then in the new moon. I can set intentions based on the illuminations that I got, knowing that it’s going to be an unraveling until 6 months from now

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they’re illuminated and I just I find that i’m not rushing so much.

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I’m finding that I have a little bit more joy in the process and it’s so interesting this past week, cause it’s been.

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It’s been a full week now since I had that kind of breakdown with the worthlessness Cycle and the the awareness of it.

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I am so aware of how often I spoke, this into existence to and with my children, and i’m so amazed that with the now in the forefront of my mind, I can see it so, clearly, and i’m not doing

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those subconscious behaviors that i’ve done for the past 11 years of being a mom.

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And so I just wanna share with you that when you get these things So if you’re really struggling with finances, if you’re really struggling with a relationship, if you’re really struggling with a family member or a friend, if

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you’re really struggling with your weight If you’re really struggling with a health issue.

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I would strongly encourage you, because a lot of these are subconscious aspects that then physically manifest in our lives.

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I would really encourage you to write it down. face. it faced the fear that this is creating, and for me, understanding the foundational aspects of the worthlessness that was perpetuating so much of this it really illuminates

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yet again the subconscious aspects that create in our life.

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And so the other day I I was going through and I was looking at finances and I’ve shared before this is our first time in debt. In 4 years we were debt free and financially, free while traveling and so this

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is the first time that we’ve had debt and i’ve been going through a lot of like slave cycle feeling very victimized, and feeling like a slave.

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Now. all I do is think about money and how i’m going to pay the bills, and it was so illuminating to me that I, my stole myself me has not changed.

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I am not a different being, because I have debt now.

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So why have my priorities and my thoughts should shifted so hugely to focus on?

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Now this issue, this debt, that I have and i’ve become indebted to it like physically, mentally, emotionally, my thoughts were being consumed by it.

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But it was totally subconscious. And so this past week I really illuminated this aspect, and I saw it so clearly, and I went oh, thank like no, thank you.

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I am not interested in living, breathing, trying just to pay a debt.

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That is not what I am here for, and as soon as I was able to consciously put that into the forefront of my mind, I could feel things like stacking differently.

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I could steal things shifting as soon as I released this aspect, high indigo.

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As soon as I release this aspect of charging for Goddess Camp and it may at some point become something that I charge for.

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But for this first one I really just wanted to see what happens and I don’t want it to be a business.

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I want it to be community gathering of women that coming together.

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And so how do you do that, and yet pay for all the things that I need to purchase and buy all the food And all these things kept coming up, and I just went.

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I, I trust, like I spent 4 years on the road traveling, not knowing where I was going to end up, and was so taken care of. I made.

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I made almost a $100,000 in our last year of traveling like I was so taken care of.

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Why would I not be taken care of on this land? And so it was such an amazing unraveling to really illuminate that my thoughts, my slavery to the debt my burden was creating more of that in my life and so I

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reiterated, I said, I do trust the universe. I do trust that I am taken care of.

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I do trust this in my entire being. I know that I am meant to do exactly what I meant to do, as it comes into my life.

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As it is, as I am inspired to do it I know that this is true, and so I just wanna offer and extend that to you.

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If you’re struggling with any of this release it trust the more that we hold on to it and try to control it and try to work for it and try to earn it and try to you know Do it all on our own the more.

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We do constrict and close and stop the flow because we’re not allowing or trusting the that it’s going to happen for us through us with us.

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You know as us. And so that was a huge revelation.

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Yet again of realizing that when we feel worthy enough, we can trust, when we feel worthless, we’re always having to try to prove ourselves, and push and show and create and put ourselves out there.

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But when we feel worthy, we receive, we trust, we honor, we create, we move through life, knowing that things are going to just happen because they do.

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Anyway. indigo shares. Hi, honey, your amazing spot on his always Sister Hudson kisses.

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Thank you, Indig Guy. I appreciate you making a comment that makes me happy.

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Coming out from hiding in the shadows. Thank you. I just wanna say thank you for those that join the Patreon indigo.

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Just joined with the Patreon recently. Lisa joined Loneice as a patron.

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I just had Danielle just joined as a patron.

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So thank you so much. it’s so exciting to see the community growing.

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It’s so exciting to see the women in the discord sharing and continuing these conversations.

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If you’re not in the discord and you’re having trouble joining in.

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Just send me a message, and i’ll send you the link again, and we’ll get just set up in there.

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So. thank you so much for being a part of this. I am very much excited and eager to hear about your full moon releases.

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What is it going to be? What is it going to be?

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What are you ready to release? That is creating space in your life so that you can start trusting again?

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And if that feels really scary, I invite you to go in and do some inner child work.

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If you need some support. With this reach, out and we can set up a session, I’d be happy to some space to work with you through this.

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So allowing allowing, allowing yourself to release what is no longer serving you.

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So thank you so much for being here. I hope you have an absolutely magical full moon day, and just a reminder.

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If you have a garden, or if you’ve been spotting some wild edible zoom, medicinals around today is the data harvest as the water content and the nutrition is at its highest at the full moon so if you

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see some of you know, wild blackberries or fruits, or anything around.

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Veggies go out and do some harvesting over the next 3 days, and create space to really create within yourself the love and nutrients that the earth so readily provides for.

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You, and good morning, Debbie. welcome, so I will see you all tomorrow.

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